“No! I did not do what I did... did I?” Ah these bad memories keep striking me, but they actually light me up like thunder lits the dark sky. Because “experience” is the name everyone gives to their mistakes. And well, in that case I’m an extremely experienced man! I realized this twenty years back, when for some unknown reasons I was, lying awake at night, I asked where had I gone wrong? Then this elderly voice came up to me as if haunting me. That is when I knew, yes, I knew. I was more than just an ordinary human being. That voice was going to change my life but the voice only said “dude this is going to take more than just one night”
Then “tantpis” a typical French phrase I used which means “let it be” and I thought “ why nature is not telling me who I really am” and that is when I decided to wait. Today I’m forty well to tell you the truth I’m forty plus thirty that makes seventy and I guess am still in the waiting queue. I’m French from my mother,s side and British from my dad,s. so all in all I am as selfish as a British and as annoying as a French. And quality lying is what i have learned by being Anglo francais. It all started as I recall when I learnt that my very sincere and honest father,s business was not to last very long and this is when I decided to act wisely. I started settling my own business with the help of a very good and obviously filthy rich friend. Now how was i to know that the land I had built my factory on, was the government,s property? And well it did not take the police very long to come for inspecting or should I say arresting! But see I could not have just let myself go. I had my mother and my father and myself to look after, so while answering the officer all I did was smile and as they say: the man who smiles when things go wrong has thought of someone to blame it on
Two years and a half of jail is what my friend had to go through but what could I do ? It is not my fault if British blood runs in me!
Back then I had thought that this was it that I had got rid of it, but unfortunately I was wrong. Now that I’m sitting in my armchair, feeling the warmth of my guilt which makes me ashamed and at the same abashed. But from this experience I can not help myself from saying “money can not buy you friends, but you can get a better class Of enemies”.
Another memory that still irks me and because of which I am still suffering. My marriage well I’m not talking about my marriage as a bad experience because that is the only good thing that ever happened to me. My wife was... no actually she still is a very smart, understanding and beautiful one. But unfortunately within five minutes of our marriage she got to know about my smoking addiction and her very first wish was for me to quit it. Obviously I left it and now after fifty seven years of marriage I’m still leaving it! Seriously giving up smoking is the easiest thing in the world. I know I have done it thousands of times.
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